I think i've grown into a bitter person. Work-wise, at least. So many red-tapes, bureaucracy, people-problems, and just plain problems have definitely changed me i think. I remember way back before i started working (8 months ago), i was so determined to have this mythical "work-life balance", where i work 8 hours a day, 5 days a week and the rest is "me-time". Sure, i'd accept the odd working weekends or the occasional late nights but no more than that. Oh, i was young and naive then. The one thing i've learned, responsibility is avoided at all costs. The greatest most knowledgable most hardworking guy can just turn into tai chi master once there is something to own up to or to be responsible for. Alas, that is working life. I'm sure it doesn't only happen to my current place of work, but i'm pretty sure my spirit's died a little throughout my short working life. Makes me wonder how people can stay at the same place for years.
Most of the works that involve me are during weekends or when the place isn't running. So i've been to the plant daily for 2 weeks already, even if it's just to physically be here. All to avoid someone pushing the responsiblity/blame to me once i come in on Monday. Yeah i know there are tonnes out there in far worse situations than mine. But i like to do the (not very) occasional bitch, just to let it out.
Sweet:
I have a special someone. And she thinks i'm special too. Sure it was brewing for quite awhile, but when it happened it was pretty sudden and unexpected. The getting into a relationship part, not anything else. Please rid yourselves of other thoughts. Anyways, as noted by a friend (thanks), it has been quite awhile since i've actually had that special someone. I usually blame it on me being picky, which i am really. But i've always had this fear of commitment, and i still do sometimes, but i guess this special someone's help me get over this fear.
So i am threading with caution, though not too much. That'll spoil all the fun, won't it. But i am weary of making the same mistakes i've made in the past, 'cause i really do treasure this person. Best thing that's happened to me in a long long time. Helps me get through my days (read:Bitter).
Symphony:
My pick-me-up song: Diner by Martin Sexton. If this fails to lift your spirits at least a little, then you're beyond saving.
Who would've thought
So demanding.
2 said their piece:
she really loves you :)
baby duno why i jz feel like tonight i love you super lots extra lots. tonight only ar. but too bad you're sleeping now. haha. jk la baby. i m loving you more and more everyday. everyday! cant really explain why the love is just so strong. but i really do love you very much. know tat i ady said it many times, but stil wan to say this, i m really lucky. everything jz happened on the right time i guess. baby thank you for being there with me during my difficult times (and good times), and tel me whats the things i should do and comfort me. baby, i still wanna go experience many things with u, until unforeseen future. love you very much baby. i know you do too. :)
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