Recently there was an opportunity presented to me to leave this place for the comfort of home; only catch is i had to beat 2-3 other persons to it. Yes, i'm talking about a vacant position. So i went for 2 rounds of interviews, thought i did pretty well to get the call, tell everyone to prepare to play some ball/yamcha/carpool/drink/meet up/spend quality time and then came the news: didn't get it.
I'll admit, i was heartbroken. Suddenly hot flashes of tears rolled down my eyes when i read that e-mail. I didn't know why. Not that i was really passionate 'bout the job. I think it was 'cause i've managed to convince everyone, especially myself that i'd be heading home soon. I was thinking of things like how i'd tell my boss, how to pack my things, which to bring along and which to leave behind. I even told the girlfriend the night before that i sensed a big upheaval in my life and that i was really positive about it. Serves me right for being so.... naive?
Anyways what's done is done. Now that i'm staying (at least) awhile longer, i've got to make do with what i have. And what i have is still a pretty darn good job. And good colleagues who i take advantage of sometimes. Not physically. Couple that with the fact that we've got this big presentation coming up really soon. I'm actually excited about that. Holy crap. I'm actually excited about something related to my current job? Get me to the nearest hospital. Stat.
What this whole experience has taught me, is that i have people who care about me. Even if sometimes i make a shitty acquaintance. There's this friend who calls me to ask me (in his own manner less way) if i had gotten the job, or another friend who called me before the interviews, or this friend who calls me just to tell me to wait another day for the news. Then of course, there's the girlfriend, who just puts a (virtual) arm around my shoulders and tell me everything's gonna be okay.
To all of you out there, you guys inspire me to do better. And i'll do better, damn it. When i was young i always thought i was destined for greater things. I think it was 'cause i watched too much cartoon. But i know now that greater is not necessarily restricted to wearing a mask and a cape, fighting crime. Greater can mean bouncing back from a huge disappointment. Greater can mean completing that job you've set out to do. Or greater can just mean constantly improving yourself, bit by bit. By bit.
But i will get what i want.
I got you, didn't i?
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ego man, great things are ahead waiting for you. i know your egoism wont let you give up so easily and i know you wont you wont and you wont. whatever you are doing now is preparing yourself for the next destination, where a girl is waiting you to back home. the real home. and she is willing to wait. being physically distanced really does not matter because it rooted a strong foundation in the relationship.
dont risk yourself to quit, because you risk yourself being pinched super hardly. jk. dont risk to quit because the girl wil be sad. she is always there whenever you need her. and she knows, you wil do the same for her as well. she oso thinks you're destined for great thing. (you must think the same for her u know? haha)
sum up all, grow old with you, go through everything with you :)
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